Well, hello friends! It’s hard to believe that I haven’t written a post since Thanksgiving!
It really isn’t that hard to believe at all. December was a busy month and my mind just wasn’t right. (More on that is a moment) Its amazing how a negative mind set can just mess up everything that you enjoy!
The holidays were amazing and I had a wonderful time going out with friends, seeing family and having the girls home during Winter break. We (even the Engineer) spent a week up in Shaver at the cabin taking walks, going on a few trail runs (it was icy!), drinking lots of tea and cooking yummy meals. Even though the Holidays were fabulous, I was struggling inside and I just abused my body with food and alcohol. Not in an addiction sort of way, but more about not caring what I put in my body and in turn, my whole body image and thoughts were negative.
I am guilty of being hard on myself. I admit that I am my biggest enemy when it comes to body image and self sabotage. Moderation is not a theory I practice well. I’m usually eating clean, exercising 5-6x per week and limiting alcohol (like no alcohol except once a month) when I’m training. Well, I haven’t been training for anything since last summer and I realize that I need to get back in the saddle! For the last month and a half my mind came up with a million excuses why I NEED to eat those pretzel m&m’s or have 3 glasses of amazing wine with dinner… and maybe even one more with dessert! I was living the good life of not caring in social situations, but every time I’d get dressed the negative thoughts of feeling gross and bloated were staring back at me in the mirror. I believe that taking time off is healthy, but I took it to another level!
Fast forward to this past weekend. My mind finally clicked. I didn’t want to put in all this effort at the gym and not see the results anymore. I wanted to get a race on the calendar and start working towards a goal that I enjoy. So, that’s what I did. I reached out to some friends to find out what they have on calendar and I signed up for an Olympic distance Triathlon in Bass Lake, CA at the end of May so I can train with friends!
I’m beyond excited and its had a positive ripple effect to my diet and how I want to treat my body. 2015 is going to be an amazing year of growth for me. I’m going to do the things that make me a happier and better person both physically and mentally. This will hopefully make me a better mom, wife and friend too.
I thought I had everything in control, but it’s clear that I have a long way to go before all my healthy habits become just that, HABITS. I was disappointed that I fell victim to the classic holiday weight gain even though I was sticking to boot camp and HIIT regularly. The saying, “You cannot out train a bad diet” has never been more true to me. I’m just going KEEP MOVING FORWARD and pretend like the holiday season of 2014 didn’t really happen – ha!
So, here’s to a positive 2015! As part of doing what makes me happy, I’m planning on posting at least once a week if not more and keeping you all updated on my nutrition and training!